y'know how your gut feeling tells you somethin, but you dont want to believe it, but then someone comes along and affirms it, and IT HITS YOU LIKE A BIG YELLOW SCHOOL BUS. it's like a slap in your face. hahaha. one hard one.

and i wish i never cried. its so, weak. so, pitiful and ugh. thats why i try never to cry. because in a few hours i'll be feeling damn stupid. and esp NOT OVER BOYS! i'll feel even stupiderrrrr. aiyoh. so he doesnt like you? move on la. shit happens right. erase erase.

why does my christmas always turn out shitty? honestly, cant i have one good christmas? uh! its so annoying. christmas is 3 days away. 3 days! its so weird how you look forward to something so much, but when it comes, your so disappointed cause it never turns out how you expect it to. it sucks balls okay! maybe because im not a kid anymore. now thats sad. now, i have to pretend to like my presents. why cant it be like chinese new year. then people give you money, so you can get whatever you want.

i need to start getting ready to meeet priss and rach. havent seen rach in a loooong time. havent seen van, robyn and jaime in a long time too. ok bye!




What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
crazy/beautiful
2:36:00 PM